Lose who you are.

So. The new I Knew You Were Trouble. music video released today.
It's safe to say that I'm already obsessed. I feel like I could possibly be the biggest 24 year old Taylor Swift fan on the planet.
The dialogue at the beginning and end of this music video kind of reminds me of Rihanna's We Found Love music video.

"I think, I think when it's all over it just comes back in flashes ya know? It's like a kaleidoscope of memories. It just all comes back. But he never does. I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen. It's not really anything he said, or anything he did. It was the feeling that came along with it and the crazy thing is, I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again. But I don't know if I should. I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright. But, I just thought, "How can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?" Maybe he knew that when he saw me. I guess I just lost my balance. I think the worst part of it all wasn't losing him, it was losing me."
Cue I Knew You Were Trouble. music video.
"I don't know if you know who you are until you lose who you are."

Well played, Taylor. Well played.
Every girl feels like they relate to most of Taylor Swifts songs. After all, that's why we love her. I feel like I can relate to this song and Back To December the most.

Don't get me wrong. T-Swizzle writes EVERY song about my life. >_<
However, these two songs have impacted me in more ways than I can even begin to explain.

WANEGBT

I realized this week that I forgot what it felt like to be mad at a bestfriend.
Looking back, in sixth grade, I got into a pretty big fight with my bestfriend Maigyn Luthe.  Maigyn is/will always be my bestfriend. We've been through everything together. She knows me like the back of her hand and the awesome thing about our friendship is that we're on the opposite side of the States, only talk every now and then, and still love each other like we did in fourth grade! Anyway, I remember what our fight was about. It was dumb and I don't even want to say it out loud. Long story short, it sucked. I remember going to school thinking.. who am I going to talk bestfriend stuff to? will I lose my bestfriend? I think that entire day was honestly one of the worst feelings in my life.

This feeling happened again this past week. My bestfriend and I got into a petty little fight and it ruined an entire day of our friendship. Worst part? If I would have listened then it wouldn't have happened. No one hates being told their wrong more than me, but I was wrong. I believed that this dumb boy had changed. I had it stamped in my mind that this time it would be different. The entire day I thought... who am I going to text this bestfriend stuff to? will I lose my bestfriend? This. Sucks.
I don't think I can ever apologize to her enough, but I'm so glad that she's a forgiving friend.

And to the boy:
Karma will come find you one day. You can't continue to play with girls emotions and get away with it.
To all the girls:
Listen to your best when she tells you a boy isn't good for you. She's prrrrobably right.


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