ESWIE & ATS

It's been a long time since music has made me feel the way I felt tonight. I sound like a typical dramatic girl, but the last time I remember this feeling was when I listened to Lovedrug in 2008. I just can't even explain it. I mean, sure, I listen to music and love it. Most music doesn't make me feel like it's changed my life in the first listen, though.

I remember when I listened to this song in 08. I just sat there in awe, had a few emotions, jumped up, got in my Jeep, drove to Best Buy and purchased this entire album.

Lovedrug. Everything Starts Where It Ends.

Cartel has been my favorite band since 2007ish. When I say favorite band, I mean it. When I heard they were coming out with a new album I almost lost it. Tonight, I was anxiously waiting for Cartel's new album, Collider, to release on iTunes. I had pre-ordered it just hours before. I got an email that said it released and I treaded downstairs with my Mac and all electronic devices as fast as I could. So, I'm sitting here on my living room floor listening to the new album on repeat while uploading the new songs to every device I have. A Thousand Suns comes on and I'm overcome by this familiar feeling. I can't even move to the next new song, because I have to keep listening. An hour later, I've successfully listened to every song once and I keep coming back to A Thousand Suns. Six times, in fact. I wish I could link the song on here, but it's not on youtube. Don't just go look up the lyrics. It's not the same. The sound makes the song, not just the lyrics. Go buy their album, you won't be disappointed. 

It's good to know I'm growing older but music is still changing my life.

Lose who you are.

So. The new I Knew You Were Trouble. music video released today.
It's safe to say that I'm already obsessed. I feel like I could possibly be the biggest 24 year old Taylor Swift fan on the planet.
The dialogue at the beginning and end of this music video kind of reminds me of Rihanna's We Found Love music video.

"I think, I think when it's all over it just comes back in flashes ya know? It's like a kaleidoscope of memories. It just all comes back. But he never does. I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen. It's not really anything he said, or anything he did. It was the feeling that came along with it and the crazy thing is, I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again. But I don't know if I should. I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright. But, I just thought, "How can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?" Maybe he knew that when he saw me. I guess I just lost my balance. I think the worst part of it all wasn't losing him, it was losing me."
Cue I Knew You Were Trouble. music video.
"I don't know if you know who you are until you lose who you are."

Well played, Taylor. Well played.
Every girl feels like they relate to most of Taylor Swifts songs. After all, that's why we love her. I feel like I can relate to this song and Back To December the most.

Don't get me wrong. T-Swizzle writes EVERY song about my life. >_<
However, these two songs have impacted me in more ways than I can even begin to explain.

Always thought I'd see you again

Really missing you today.

Our time together flew by. Before I knew it, you were gone. If I could go back, I wouldn't take advantage of the time we had together. Life is so, so incredibly, short. Can't imagine what my life would have been without this beautiful lady. So incredibly thankful.

I thank my God every time I remember you. -Philippians 1:3

"You were putting on a show, so I'd rather be alone"

We Are The In Crowd is my new favorite musical obsession.
Helping me get over things.
Helping me move forward.
Helping me realize I deserve better.