ESWIE & ATS

It's been a long time since music has made me feel the way I felt tonight. I sound like a typical dramatic girl, but the last time I remember this feeling was when I listened to Lovedrug in 2008. I just can't even explain it. I mean, sure, I listen to music and love it. Most music doesn't make me feel like it's changed my life in the first listen, though.

I remember when I listened to this song in 08. I just sat there in awe, had a few emotions, jumped up, got in my Jeep, drove to Best Buy and purchased this entire album.

Lovedrug. Everything Starts Where It Ends.

Cartel has been my favorite band since 2007ish. When I say favorite band, I mean it. When I heard they were coming out with a new album I almost lost it. Tonight, I was anxiously waiting for Cartel's new album, Collider, to release on iTunes. I had pre-ordered it just hours before. I got an email that said it released and I treaded downstairs with my Mac and all electronic devices as fast as I could. So, I'm sitting here on my living room floor listening to the new album on repeat while uploading the new songs to every device I have. A Thousand Suns comes on and I'm overcome by this familiar feeling. I can't even move to the next new song, because I have to keep listening. An hour later, I've successfully listened to every song once and I keep coming back to A Thousand Suns. Six times, in fact. I wish I could link the song on here, but it's not on youtube. Don't just go look up the lyrics. It's not the same. The sound makes the song, not just the lyrics. Go buy their album, you won't be disappointed. 

It's good to know I'm growing older but music is still changing my life.

It'll be alright

It's been a while.

You know when you feel like everyones moving on except for you? Like you're standing still and the world is spinning faster than ever? Like everything seems to be going wrong? I was packing to go see Tayloh in Norman tomorrow and THIS song came on:

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Everything felt alright in the world again. Cliché? Maybe. 

But seriously...

When you feel like everyones changing and you're standing still

When you feel like everything's going wrong

When you feel like things can't get any worse

When you feel like you'll never move on

When you feel like everyone else is growing up...

the sun ALWAYS ends up rising.

It'll be alright.

Lose who you are.

So. The new I Knew You Were Trouble. music video released today.
It's safe to say that I'm already obsessed. I feel like I could possibly be the biggest 24 year old Taylor Swift fan on the planet.
The dialogue at the beginning and end of this music video kind of reminds me of Rihanna's We Found Love music video.

"I think, I think when it's all over it just comes back in flashes ya know? It's like a kaleidoscope of memories. It just all comes back. But he never does. I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen. It's not really anything he said, or anything he did. It was the feeling that came along with it and the crazy thing is, I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again. But I don't know if I should. I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright. But, I just thought, "How can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?" Maybe he knew that when he saw me. I guess I just lost my balance. I think the worst part of it all wasn't losing him, it was losing me."
Cue I Knew You Were Trouble. music video.
"I don't know if you know who you are until you lose who you are."

Well played, Taylor. Well played.
Every girl feels like they relate to most of Taylor Swifts songs. After all, that's why we love her. I feel like I can relate to this song and Back To December the most.

Don't get me wrong. T-Swizzle writes EVERY song about my life. >_<
However, these two songs have impacted me in more ways than I can even begin to explain.

Always thought I'd see you again

Really missing you today.

Our time together flew by. Before I knew it, you were gone. If I could go back, I wouldn't take advantage of the time we had together. Life is so, so incredibly, short. Can't imagine what my life would have been without this beautiful lady. So incredibly thankful.

I thank my God every time I remember you. -Philippians 1:3

Logo, Name, Facebook (Photo career)

When people tell me I'm good at my photography it's hard for me to agree.
It's hard for me to tell people I'm good.
BUT when I look back down my photography path I realize I've come SO far.
Then I can say I know I'm better than when I started.

Changes are literally coming sooner than what ya'll think.
Keep your eyes peeled.

-Logo
-Name
& Facebook are in the works.

Wouldn't be where I am without some of my family and some VERY good friends. Friends who believe in me and what I do, because, like I said, it's hard for me to be conceded in what I do.

HistoryX2 (Lydia preview)

Friday I photographed my first ever newborn! In fact, I photographed the first child under a year old thats wasn't my brother. I was honored when Laura and Luke asked me to take a few shots of Lydia and my nerves shook me around for several months before Lydia finally came into the world. Luke, Laura, Ethan and family celebrated Lydia's life on Monday, September 24. I visited them in the hospital on Tuesday and, honestly, haven't seen a more precious baby since my baby brother was born.

Ethan is Lydia's big brother and he is one of the cutest kids ever. He already knows what he wants to be when he grows up. This kid also knows how to entertain an entire room.

I'm going to be taking my precious little time editing these photos. Although, I probably won't have to do alot of editing. This baby and family are naturally adorable.

The following are a select few . I'm in the process of trying to get photoshop so I can edit these photos the best I can.
However, the few I've edited have me grinning from ear to ear. Ethan and Lydia already have a precious little bond that I can only describe in photos.

The following three broke my heart when I TRIED to edit them. I decided the au-naturel look was better. Lydia and Ethan, you are adorable as-is. :)

and as I told Luke and Laura, if they don't frame the next one of Ethan; I will! This little boy is the cutest! 

WANEGBT

I realized this week that I forgot what it felt like to be mad at a bestfriend.
Looking back, in sixth grade, I got into a pretty big fight with my bestfriend Maigyn Luthe.  Maigyn is/will always be my bestfriend. We've been through everything together. She knows me like the back of her hand and the awesome thing about our friendship is that we're on the opposite side of the States, only talk every now and then, and still love each other like we did in fourth grade! Anyway, I remember what our fight was about. It was dumb and I don't even want to say it out loud. Long story short, it sucked. I remember going to school thinking.. who am I going to talk bestfriend stuff to? will I lose my bestfriend? I think that entire day was honestly one of the worst feelings in my life.

This feeling happened again this past week. My bestfriend and I got into a petty little fight and it ruined an entire day of our friendship. Worst part? If I would have listened then it wouldn't have happened. No one hates being told their wrong more than me, but I was wrong. I believed that this dumb boy had changed. I had it stamped in my mind that this time it would be different. The entire day I thought... who am I going to text this bestfriend stuff to? will I lose my bestfriend? This. Sucks.
I don't think I can ever apologize to her enough, but I'm so glad that she's a forgiving friend.

And to the boy:
Karma will come find you one day. You can't continue to play with girls emotions and get away with it.
To all the girls:
Listen to your best when she tells you a boy isn't good for you. She's prrrrobably right.


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